At times in your life, you can't always get what you want. Maybe you can, but it is you who are not to decide, unless you are authorized. Life can be so tough, especially when you have to deal with your own feeling, self-esteem, and your existence. What's your role in this universe? What have you contributed to your own life. Yes, your own life.
Sometimes, in the dark of the night, I often am thinking: am I free? Am I as free as free can be free? There's a tingle in my stomach, churning to a certain degree of confusion. While it shall not be questioned, it is tighten my life to the ground.
I am humble, as far as I can say. I don't pursue luxury in life. I am happy with what I have. Sometimes, I feel like to do what you do, but then I froze myself in deep thoughts: it is me who is limited. I don't want to dream because when I wake up, I am still me, not you.
Life sometimes is quite a satisfactory journey when everything is kept tight in a jar of labour that rewards are so wonderful. But, at times... it is so... tiring.
I am feeling tired at times, who never is? I am just going to have a rest.
Hi! I am Arfi Binsted. I am an Indonesian-born Kiwi, a mother of two young children (another one is hopefully coming), a wife to a wonderful eater and husband, fully homemaker, a small farmer, and an enthusiast on almost every side of arts. I cook for a passion, and I bake out of joy. I am writing basically to watch my own development on writing, food styling, and food photography. I am no trained chef, nor a professional photographer, for I am pretty much a self-taught person. I hope you're enjoying reading what I am writing and involved in every photograph I take. Welcome and Enjoy.
9 comments:
how u're feeling just the same like I am......:)
Life is always like that dear. Waiting for your bounce back.
A realy wonderful post.
I guess we all go through a down period.
Few years back i went through one of the toughest time in my life, it took me almost a year to be back to my oldself.
Everyone has their ups and downs. I think it's a case of looking at a glass and deciding whether it is half full or half empty. I have had my share of empty moments, as recent as last week (I forgot to take my thyroid pills, oops, hormonal wreck). Sometimes I hate the situations I get myself into, but then again I've made my bed, now I've got to sleep in it.
Bounce back soon and continue to produce beautiful photography as you always do. :-)
hope you feel better soon. xx
You have a great blog Arfi...really nice and meaningful!
Kudos girl!
Hoping you feel better soon!!
Hugs Rosie x
arfi I can remember feeling just like this at your age when the children were the same age as yours. We called it cosmic loneliness in my day. I think it is quite normal and passes as the children get older and you find time for yourself.
Hope things are going better now Arfi. I think we can all empathise with your feelings.
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